How Long?

Here I am sitting in front of the computer,
Thinking of words to write and say,
How else can I express myself today?
I feel anxious thinking about the next day.

How many more days before it ends?
How many more sleepless nights?
How do I end this pain?
The pain of waiting for it to end.

I could tear my hair out,
Scream my lungs out,
And yet the days pass by,
As I sit through it with a sigh.

Time flies when you are having fun,
Time crawls when you are having none,
What is time to a man?
Is it that important?

As I sit and watch the days go by,
I count the days I have left,
The days when it will be filled with fun,
The days when there will be sun.

How many more days before it gets dark?
How long before I can’t hear the lark?
How many more hours do I have?
How long before I shut myself in a cave?

Leonardo Da Vinci famous paintings

This is Madonna Of The Rocks. This is the first version Leonardo Da Vinci painted for the church but was considered too scandalous. As you can see, Virgin Mary (cloaked in blue) is holding an infant (presumably baby Jesus) and opposite her is Uriel who has his hand around another infant (baby John the baptist). Mary is seen to be gripping something in mid-air with her fingers curled like talons while Uriel is seen making a cutting gesture with his hand as if slicing the neck of the invisible head gripped by Mary. Notice that baby Jesus is submitting to baby John's authority instead of Jesus blessing baby John? There is another watered down painting of Madonna Of The Rocks called Virgin Of The Rocks where the "mistakes" are rectified. The former is found at the Louvre, Paris while the latter is hung in London's National Gallery.



It is said that Jesus (seated in the centre) was the only one holding a glass but look closely and you'll see that everyone seated at the table has a glass. This contradicts the fact that the glass held by Jesus here is the Holy Grail or known as the Chalice. The Last Supper is also known as a drawing with 13 men inside but look closely again and you'll see that the person seated next to Jesus is actually a woman, Mary Magdalene. Mary Magdalene is Jesus's partner romantically.



The most famous painting by Leonardo Da Vinci, also known as La Giaconda. It is discussed ad nauseum by people around the world that the painting is actually a reflection of Leonardo himself. The most intriguing thing about this painting is, why is Mona Lisa smiling? No one really knows the answer to that but read The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown and you'll probably know why Mona Lisa is smiling. I'm not providing any spoilers.



The Vitruvian Man. Very famous and can be seen almost everywhere, even on mousepads! It is said that Leonardo exhumed corpses to measure the exact proportion of human bone structure. He showed that the human body is made of building blocks whose proportional ratios always equal to PHI, the Divine Proportion which equals to 1.618. Try measuring the length from your shoulder to your fingertips and divide it by the measurement from your elbow to your fingertips. You'll find that it equals to the PHI.

The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown

The Da Vinci Code is highly recommended for people who want a good thriller and an eye-opener. The book centres on religion, Christianity to be precise. It also talks a lot about arts like what the title suggests. Famous works by Leonardo Da Vinci including Mona Lisa, The Last Supper, Madonna of the Rocks (or also known as Virgin Of The Rocks), The Vitruvian Man are included in the novel. Twists and turns everywhere in the book, up till the last two chapters are still evident.

Although the main plot of the story is to find the Holy Grail, it is the murder of a member of Priory of Sion that starts the whole thing in motion. It shows the integrity of a person even when staring death in the face, holds true to his promise to hide the location of an artefact that leads to the Holy Grail.

After reading this book, it has opened my eyes to a lot of things. For a free thinker like me, it was surprising to read that Jesus was actually a mortal but for devout followers of Christianity, that doesn’t come as a surprise. It was also surprising to find that Leonardo Da Vinci was a member of a secret society, Priory of Sion. It is also surprising that there are so many hidden clues in his work. This whole novel is full of surprises and truly gripping.

This is one book that should not be missed!

This book ranks number one in my favourite books to read... Truly amazing!

Fate

Fate

It’s 2 a.m. and I’m awake,
Pondering over the dream I had,
It felt so near yet so far,
It felt so real yet so surreal.

I cannot change the hands of time,
To the yesteryears when things were fine,
To the days where we were both together,
To the days where we were both naive.

We were so close then,
I had felt so secure,
But minutes was all it took,
For paradise to come crashing down.

I had turned away from everything,
I felt rage in me like never before,
I vowed never to fall in love again,
I vowed to never let myself get hurt again.

I never wanted to see him again,
I never wanted to talk to him again,
But fate played a cruel game on me,
He appeared before me again and again.

Who was I to stop fate?
Who was I to stop the inevitable?
I begin to understand,
If I can’t stop it, accept it.

As years pass by I matured,
I was no longer the naïve girl,
Few years back,
I was on my way to womanhood.

Perhaps that’s what opened my mind,
Opened my mind to accept him again,
If we can’t be lovers, we can still be friends,
But would old feelings resurface?

I told myself once it’s over,
It can never happen again,
So with my heart at ease,
I embrace this relationship.

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haven't been doing anything much lately. i've not even started revising which is like so not good! been surfing around, downloading anime and random videos of Gackt. chanced upon this video of Gackt where he was so handsome and not to mention that he's half naked. it's a takano yuri CM. there's a naked girl inside the video too.... hmmmmmm.... but heck, Gackt looks damn handsome here! yummy!~

too bad i can't upload the file here for you guys to view but if u want, i could send it to u via MSN. *drools on Gackt*