Fate

Fate

It’s 2 a.m. and I’m awake,
Pondering over the dream I had,
It felt so near yet so far,
It felt so real yet so surreal.

I cannot change the hands of time,
To the yesteryears when things were fine,
To the days where we were both together,
To the days where we were both naive.

We were so close then,
I had felt so secure,
But minutes was all it took,
For paradise to come crashing down.

I had turned away from everything,
I felt rage in me like never before,
I vowed never to fall in love again,
I vowed to never let myself get hurt again.

I never wanted to see him again,
I never wanted to talk to him again,
But fate played a cruel game on me,
He appeared before me again and again.

Who was I to stop fate?
Who was I to stop the inevitable?
I begin to understand,
If I can’t stop it, accept it.

As years pass by I matured,
I was no longer the naïve girl,
Few years back,
I was on my way to womanhood.

Perhaps that’s what opened my mind,
Opened my mind to accept him again,
If we can’t be lovers, we can still be friends,
But would old feelings resurface?

I told myself once it’s over,
It can never happen again,
So with my heart at ease,
I embrace this relationship.