Friday, March 31, 2006

after eons

BWAHAHAHAHAHA…. I’m done with assignments and all my presentation. Damn, I feel real liberated. I’m also pleased with my critical reading and thinking assignment marks. FULL MARKS!! Woot!! That’s the first time I got full marks in assignments, heck! Come to think of it, it’s been a really long time since I last got full marks in anything so yeah, I’m proud of myself. Shoot me but I’ll still be damn proud of myself. It seems that I’m a critical thinker after all. I was worried since all this while, we have been shaped to think inside the box (ie. Spoon-feeding) and to suddenly think outside the box this semester is somewhat refreshing and yeah, liberating. I’ve got one last assignment for this critical reading and thinking subject and hopefully my second assignment will be just as good since my oral presentation was bad coz I only got six out of ten but I was surprised I got such marks judging by the fact my presentation was so bad I feel like jumping out of the window. Presentation ain’t my thing. I’m more of the thinking audience rather than the one presenting outside to provoke thinking.

So, what else is new? Oh, Ice Age: The Meltdown was nice! I like Sid the sloth and the ending line by Manny the mammoth was priceless! Real entertaining so I suggest you guys go watch it soon. I have yet to watch V For Vendetta. It should be a nice movie but nobody to watch with me. Don’t know how clear the downloaded ones are though. Hmmm, maybe I should download it. Exams are coming and I’m damn worried over literature. Damn literary writers who can’t convey their message outright and had to go in damn big rounds and irrelevant words to get the “message” across. Sheesh! It’ll all be good if they were like Robert Browning’s “Porphyria’s Lover” or like Wilfred Owen’s war poems which were pretty straightforward. I’m worried over literature and next semester would be Malaysian literature, yay…!! -.-”

These days I’m just listening to Justin Lo and I gotta admit that I rarely listen to Hong Kong singers but he’s not half bad. His second album has got me grooving and love his ballads. A digression but I dreamt of LeeHom last night and damn the alarm clock for waking me up this morning for university. So yeah, a good dream down the drain.

*looks up* wow, what an intellectual post.

Quote of the day: Human life moves towards nothingness from which it came from.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

pissed like shit!

“Vous ne pouvez effectuer aucun travail, vous morceau de merde!”

My opening line of my journal entry after god knows how long. How do you like it? Right now, I am fucking pissed over the assignments I’m doing. Group assignments but always feel like a one man job. How am I supposed to handle this? It not only happened once but a few times already. How am I supposed to let them know that they can’t do things like this to me anymore? I have had enough, I am so god damn tired, so damn saturated from work and now I have to deal with problems like this? Why is it that I’m always cleaning up the mess so that it looks all sparkly and clean? Why is it that I’m the one covering up for all the mess?

I am so angry, so pissed, so taken for granted that right now, I’m in total silence. It’s scarier that way when I’m silent and no one knows what’s really going on in my mind. The anxiety, the worry, everything is going everywhere in my mind and it’s so unorganised. This is bad, bad up to the point where I’m actually drinking beer to cool myself down but I don’t think it’s working.

I AM NOT A BLOODY TEACHER SO DON’T EXPECT ME TO CORRECT ALL YOUR GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT SENTENCES! Why can’t they submit one that is grammatically correct? For Christ’s sake, they’re doing BA in English and they can’t even do a paper that has no grammatical error? If I just let it pass, how will that affect my image of a person that is quite grammatically correct when it comes to assignments? If I just let it pass, how will that affect the impression of the lecturer on us? If I just let it pass, how will that affect the grades? Can someone just tell me what the fuck should I do?

Sunday, March 05, 2006

too friggin exhausted

Wha?! Thinking? Semantics? Journalism? Wha?! *dies*