pissed like shit!

“Vous ne pouvez effectuer aucun travail, vous morceau de merde!”

My opening line of my journal entry after god knows how long. How do you like it? Right now, I am fucking pissed over the assignments I’m doing. Group assignments but always feel like a one man job. How am I supposed to handle this? It not only happened once but a few times already. How am I supposed to let them know that they can’t do things like this to me anymore? I have had enough, I am so god damn tired, so damn saturated from work and now I have to deal with problems like this? Why is it that I’m always cleaning up the mess so that it looks all sparkly and clean? Why is it that I’m the one covering up for all the mess?

I am so angry, so pissed, so taken for granted that right now, I’m in total silence. It’s scarier that way when I’m silent and no one knows what’s really going on in my mind. The anxiety, the worry, everything is going everywhere in my mind and it’s so unorganised. This is bad, bad up to the point where I’m actually drinking beer to cool myself down but I don’t think it’s working.

I AM NOT A BLOODY TEACHER SO DON’T EXPECT ME TO CORRECT ALL YOUR GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT SENTENCES! Why can’t they submit one that is grammatically correct? For Christ’s sake, they’re doing BA in English and they can’t even do a paper that has no grammatical error? If I just let it pass, how will that affect my image of a person that is quite grammatically correct when it comes to assignments? If I just let it pass, how will that affect the impression of the lecturer on us? If I just let it pass, how will that affect the grades? Can someone just tell me what the fuck should I do?