tears for them

I had a tiring day today. Right after class, I rushed for work and came back at almost 8 pm. I had my dinner then and I started on my drama marathon. Right now, hooked onto a Taiwanese drama called “Devil Beside Me”. A kinda cute drama (obviously you can’t expect a top notch performance by the cast since it’s after all an idol drama) that was based on a manga. I have yet to find out the title of the manga though.

Two days ago, my car was stuck in a night market at 5.30pm. It was a harrowing experience of driving the car out of the sea of people where it’s cramped both sides. I swear to god, I almost thought I’d never get out of there. Thank god I had my university mates with me at that time.

Yesterday was the partner meeting at Starbucks where Mohin and Lam gave their last speech in the partner meeting. Naturally when Lam decided to give his speech, all of us girls started crying and we knew Lam was also about to cry too but he held back. When the meeting ended, Mas went to the back and hugged Lam goodbye and she burst into uncontrollable tears which then caused Andrew and I to cry. Today, he wrote a message in our partner comm book and when I read it, I felt like crying again. As I’m writing this now, I feel the tears well up in my eyes. It’s easy for other people to tell me to accept this but when you have put so much emotion into the relationship with both of them; it’s harder done than said.

Today was the last day I ever worked with Lam. I’m gonna miss him madly although he pisses us off everyday but I will miss him so much. I will miss Mohin and Lam so much, there won’t be anyone singing “My Humps” anymore, no one torturing Meg so much we laugh together, no one dancing a stupid move because we did something well. All of these would be gone. All the fun moments, all gone. The atmosphere in the store would be different. It doesn’t help that I’m listening to Gackt’s “kimi ni aitakute” now which translates to “I want to see you again”. The tears wouldn’t stop. Mohin thought I was the strong one and when he saw me cry yesterday, I think it was the first time for him to see me apparently so weak. No one can ever be strong all the time.

Motto of the day: Tears, the hydraulic force by which masculine will power is defeated by feminine water power.