stay away you hypocrites.. u have no place in my world

I’m beginning to get worried. I’m worried I’m about to turn into an extreme feminist. I feel as if I cannot trust guys that much anymore. That one thing happened and already it made me weak and just as I was about to pick myself up, another blow comes. He told me to give him time to prove himself worthy of me and all of a sudden out of nowhere, he told me he’s back with his ex-gf. I’m beginning to think he’s a real desperate guy who without a girlfriend, he would die. I’m beginning to think everything’s a lie and I’m determined not to get close with him anymore. Does he think after all that he can still treat me like nothing happened? Hugging me and all? No more. It’s gone.

Now when I have problems of any sort, I only turn to 2 people. These are the two people I trust more than the others, Lina and Frankie. Lina is the person who provides me with humour and with comfort when everything seems upside down for me. Frankie is a matured person who gives me good advice and it’s because I’m following his advice that I’m beginning to heal steadily. I can’t thank both of you enough; you guys are the greatest gems when I’m feeling down.

Heck, I should probably live my own life for myself from now on. No more intense feelings, no more commitment. I guess my wish was granted, I’m beginning to turn cold. It’s best for me that way, I need my barrier again to prevent myself from being betrayed and hurt. I’ve still got Lina to keep me company, to support me and to encourage me. I’m glad I’m back to my old self… no more deep feelings, no more commitments. I feel more free. No more, I will not let any guys hurt me anymore. I will not tolerate it. I will not be that gullible anymore, I will not trust their words that easily anymore.

I NEED TO BE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT. I’m not just an ordinary girl. Beware.