war?

Blogging was supposed to be a way out for me, a way for me to vent my anger, express my emotions and ideas but look what has it done now. When someone writes something in their blog, it’s entirely their own opinion on stuff but now, I hear friends using other friend’s blog to lash out at a certain someone. It has turned into a bloody war.

I have no idea what the hell happened in the past few weeks. Everything happened so fast. Exams are coming, pressure is mounting high and emotions are running wild. I don’t know how or why the relationship between Walter and I worsened. Fine, it’s my fault if you wanna know but still I don’t know what the big deal is with me asking for some space. Did I do something wrong and not realize it?

What’s the point of people lashing out at each other? Backstabbing? As if I don’t have people backstabbing me. Happened since high school and I doubt it stopped even now. If they wanna backstab, go ahead. They either backstab me because they are jealous or there’s something wrong with me. So if it’s the latter, then I’ll think about it and try to change if I can. But what’s the use?

Things got so out of hand I want to scream and hit things or throw something. Is god really testing my endurance, my patience? Is He waiting for the day I finally break down? Well, He got it… that day is today. I might be strong but there’s only so much I can take.