life, screw it!

The results of my examination are out. I failed to reach my own expectations and that got me feeling down. It’s probably not a valid excuse or something but now that I’ve got all distractions cleared, I hope next semester I will do better and attain the GPA that I want. Greg and Lina have both been very supportive. Thanks for having 100% confidence in me. I will keep that in mind whenever I feel I cannot go on.

I have been pretty absorbed with work lately. I feel as if life doesn’t mean much but work. I did some talking with my neighbour which is about 40+ years old. She said I am still young so there is no need to go around looking for boyfriends just because my other friends have them. I agree and I told her that now I don’t even have time for myself (what with juggling both studies and work at the same time), how can I have time for him? She has seen me grow up and she said she knew that I’m the independent type and the outspoken type. She says, maybe girls like me cannot find the right Asian men because they tend to stay away from girls like this. Maybe they are afraid that the girls are smarter and can survive without them and they prefer to go for those gentle and weak types where if you hold them any harder, they’ll crumble. She said, girls like me usually go for Western guys because the Western guys are more open and accepting. I don’t know how far this is true but maybe she’s right.

Life ain’t easy. If working full time is such a torture, try doing both studies and work at the same time. It’s not as if me working part time means I put less effort into work than those who work full time because I believe in giving my best in whatever I do, both work and studies. So those who think students like me who work and study at the same time are more worthless than those who work full time, they are full of shit. That’s what I think.

Motto of the day: Nobody’s a virgin because life screws everyone.