slightly amused and befuddled

Just because of that one post, it’s like everybody thinks I’m in love. Love in this world comes in many forms and it doesn’t necessarily need to take the form of a bf-gf love. Open your mind; I can still love him as a friend. It is still love, just a different type. Yes, this does sound cruel after all that he’s done for me but who said we must need bf-gf love to live? As long as you have a friend that understands you, that makes you comfortable, that is there for you when you’re down, it’s enough. Well, at least to me that’s enough.

Call me selfish, call me foolish but I really don’t want to commit myself to anything now. I need the freedom that I’m still trying to fight for. I am still trying to find myself, to know where I stand in the world. Love can make you blind and for now, I don’t want to be blinded by anything. This is the age where anything you decide is crucial. It can make you or break you.

I don’t want to be the person to stop him from pursuing what he wants. I don’t want to be the reason why he didn’t do well in life. If both of us are happy at where we’re standing now, there is no reason to change that. Who can guarantee that if we got together we’ll be much better off? Maybe things could be worst. Sometimes, things are better off when we’re friends. I always thought that when you’re friends, you can joke around and act silly but when you’re in a relationship, everything tends to be more serious, more weighed down and I don’t like that kind of atmosphere. So, are things any better that way? If we’re both okay with the current status, what’s wrong in staying that way? Sure, I am selfish to have said that but I am just voicing out my opinion.

Fear is a part of everyone. Even the fearless has got something he fears. Why ruin such a beautiful friendship by committing in a relationship that doesn’t have a clear future? Everybody wants him to stay behind, to really consider his decision to leave. I gave him the green light. If he should decide to go, he has my support and blessing. I would not want him to stay just because I want him to stay. That is a very selfish act. Have you ever thought that maybe he does really want to go to Australia and not that someone is forcing him to go? Have you ever thought that maybe he can achieve a different dream there? Yes, he may have dreamt of being a musician but he once dreamt of being a chef. To decide between two things he loves a lot is hard work. I don’t know, I might be too straight by saying this but maybe it’s a bit selfish to ask him to stay just so that you guys can achieve your dreams. I don’t know; I might be wrong.

Sometimes, in life you got to be realistic. It’s not wrong to dream but in a dog eat dog world, you have to be realistic. I’m not discouraging you guys from pursuing your dreams in music but you got to really think about where you guys are headed next. Do you really see a clear future in front of you? Think about it.