*moody*

Sometimes I hate myself,
I hate the way I feel,
I hate the way I make people feel,
I hate the way the world works.

It seems everything I do is wrong,
Nothing ever seems right,
The road ahead is long,
But it seems dark and alone.

I never wanted to feel this way,
Yet I put myself in such misery,
Sometimes the right one is in front of you,
Yet you never seem to realize it till they’re gone.

Is it my fault that you’re crushed?
Is it my fault for giving you hope?
Is it my fault for putting you in such misery?
Is it my fault for making your world cold?

Where would I be without you?
Where would you be without me?
Would it have been better if we didn’t meet?
Would it have made our world better?

I am torn apart,
I am thrown in confusion,
With the world swirling,
I cringe away from everything.

I tried to find peace,
I tried to find an answer,
The deeper I search,
The faster I fall.

Is it really impossible to have a platonic relationship?
Is it a rule that guys and girls cannot just be friends?
Is there a possibility that we can keep our friendship?
Is there a chance that you will forgive me?

Your intentions are good I know,
Perhaps I am just too blind,
Perhaps I should step away,
And give everyone space to breathe.

Because of you I know what it means,
What it means to love someone,
What it means to care for someone,
What it means to protect someone.

With all the strength left in you,
You try to protect what’s precious to you,
You are tired from the long and hard war,
But you never fail to fight a little longer.

The flame seems to diminish slowly,
As if signaling the life left in you,
Should the flame be extinguished one day,
I would really hope to ignite it again.

I am sorry for all the things I’ve done,
I am sorry for all the things I did,
I am sorry for all the things that happened,
I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart.

I do not deserve such kindness,
I do not deserve such care,
I do not deserve such love,
I do not deserve you at all.